“On Writing The Wolves of Evanheir and Naming Names”

Writing this story has been quite an event for me. I have loved fantasy literature since I was quite young, but I never saw myself as someone who wrote in the genre. Of course, I didn’t see myself as a would-be novelist or short story writer, either, but here I am. A couple of weeks ago, however, the germ of an idea for what I thought would be a short fairy tale came to me. I thought, “Hey, I can tell a good yarn in a couple of pages, post it to my blog and facebook author’s page, and maybe read it to the grandkids.”  Then I sat down to write.

One of the things I’ve had to do as I’ve tried to work on the novel I have in progress is give more attention to the details of each scene I’m creating and to work on dialogue to move the story instead of relying only on description.  I preached “Show; don’t tell!” to my Creative Writing students for years, and I like to teach by example.  By the time I had written those first two pages, I knew I was in trouble.  I needed more detail of the kingdom I had created. The whole thing needed more backstory. Most of all, the characters kept demanding more of the plot.  Although there is a strong connection to “Beauty and the Beast” here, as well as Merida from Pixar’s Brave, and Tolkien, of course, and other stories like these that I didn’t consciously use for inspiration, Asthore and Llyr just wouldn’t come together quickly and live happily ever after.

The writing was obsessive.  I had decided that I would post the story as a serial on my Monday through Friday facebook offering and on my WordPress blog. I had written the first three “chapters” before that Monday and realized that it was going to be too long to do one chapter a day, so I settled for two (and some of them are long), and still wasn’t sure I could do it in five days.  I would start writing and be at it for hours, go do whatever needed to be done and come back to the story.  For a good two weeks, I think, I wrote four to nine hours a day, and the whole tale is still essentially a rough draft according to my usual process! Editing and revision were both done “on the fly” and the last changes were typically made when I read through the day’s posting just before I copied and pasted.  When I finish this explanation, I need to read the whole story from start to finish to see if it really is cohesive.

I still don’t know if what is here is any good, but I enjoyed telling the story, and I learned a great deal about myself as a writer from this experience.  I know I could do much more with it, more detail, more dialogue, more minor scenes, more backstory….  I’d like to finish the novel I’ve already started before I go off on a totally different tangent! Actually, I’d like to see this story as a movie.  Anyone have the number for Pixar or Disney?

For those who expressed an interest (or confusion) with the names of the characters, the following might help:

“Character Names and Analogy of Nomenclature”

I have been intrigued by character names in fiction for years.  When I was introduced to the study of the analogy of nomenclature (what character names mean and how they fit the characters), I became a bit obsessed with this aspect of literary critical analysis.  As a writer, I am always trying to come up with names that are appropriate. All names in this story (except Bridniclir) and definitions come from http://www.names-of-baby.com or are variations of them. I looked for names with meanings that fit the characters in some way.  Most of the time I looked at Celtic, Irish, Gaelic, or Welsh names because I like the look and sound of them (when I can find a pronunciation). In some cases I used names that looked appropriate even if the meaning didn’t quite fit.

Anwir: In Welsh, the name means Liar

Aod: In Celtic, the name Aod means Mythical son of Lyr

Asthore: In Irish, the name Asthore means Loved one

Bridniclir: This is my manipulation of the name Bridget Cleary, or Bríd Ní Chléirigh, the last witch burned to death in Ireland [my apologies to my Wiccan friends for another stereotyping]

Cuini: In Gaelic, the name Cuini means Queen

Edan: In Celtic, the name Edan means Delight. In Hebrew, the name Edan means Fire

Eibhlin, Plain of: In Irish, the name Eibhlin means Derived from the name Evelyn or Evelina: In French, the name Evelyn means Life

Enid: In Celtic, the name Enid means Fair. In American, the name Enid means From the Welsh “enaid,” meaning soul or life. Also faithful or abused wife. Famous bearer. In English, the name Enid means Spirit. In Arthurian Legend, the name Enid means Spirit. In Welsh, the name Enid means Woodlark. Life. From “enaid,” meaning soul or life

Evanheir: [This one is a combination and is a bit tricky.  It actually began with the name Benson, itself a combining name that is “Ben’s Son.”  This made me think of the Twelve Tribes of Israel (hence the Twelve Kingdoms). In Hebrew, Ben means Right-hand Son.] In Hebrew, the name Evan means Right-handed. In American, the name Evan means Stone. In Celtic, the name Evan means Stone. In Scottish, the name Evan means Young Fighter. In Welsh, the name Evan means Young. The Welsh form of the Hebrew John, meaning God has been gracious, or God has shown favor

Farrell, General: In Celtic, the name Farrell means Brave Man. In American, the name Farrell means Brave. In Gaelic, the name Farrell means Brave. In Irish, the name Farrell means Victorious

Gallaghern: Male—In Irish, the name Gallagher means Eager Helper. In Gaelic, the name Gallagher means Surname [I added the “n” to make it more unusual.]

Gervase: In Celtic, the name Gervase means Servant Spear. This name is derived from combining an Old German name meaning Spear, and the Celtic word for Servant. Famous bearer. In English, the name Gervase means Serves

Haldis: Female—In Norse, the name Haldis means Firm Helper. In Teutonic, the name Haldis means Spirit of Stone

Ivy: In Greek, the name Ivy means Faithfulness. This name is derived from the plant name. In American, the name Ivy means Ivy. In English, the name Ivy means Ivy

Kunsgnos: In Celtic, the name Kunsgnos means Wise

Llyr: In Welsh, the name Llyr means a Mythical King. In Celtic, the name Llyr means From the Sea

Meghan: In Welsh, the name Meghan means Pearl. In Irish, the name Meghan means Pearl. In Greek, the name Meghan means Pearl. In American, the name Meghan means Pearl. In Anglo-Saxon, the name Meghan means Strong and Capable

Regan: In Celtic, the name Regan means Little King. In American, the name Regan means Regal. In Irish, the name Regan means Regal

Rhychdir, Captain: In Welsh, the name Rhychdir means From the Plow Land

Tabrimon: In Biblical, the name Tabrimon means Good Pomegranate, the Navel, the Middle [my nod to Middle Earth]

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“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pts 9-10”

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 9—Warrior Queen”

 “Here! On the Plain of Eibhlin!”  The mental shout from the scouting wolf almost knocked Asthore off of Ivy as they reviewed the mustered guard on the palace grounds.  The youngster was the first to spot Anwir’s host.  His initial excitement, however, was soon quashed by Llyr’s gentle but sharp command to report more details.  Asthore listened, her head cocked to one side. The Captain of the Guards looked at her with some concern.

“They look ready and able, Captain,” she said as she recovered herself.  With a mental “ear” still listening to the wolf king’s organizing his own band, she used her new information to send a messenger to the generals to meet the challengers. She did not bother to explain how she had come by these details.  Most believed that Kunsgnos had divined it.

The queen sent her own message to the black wolf. “Llyr, remember your promise to me that you and the pack will stay clear of battles.  You are no real match for our weapons or trained war horses, and I do not want any of you hurt or killed!”

“We will do as you ask, my queen, and scout the enemy for you.  If they should come into the mountains, there are some ways we might hinder them, but I will not risk the pack in a foolish confrontation.”  As agreeable as this seemed, she could read his chagrin in the tone of his reply.  The pack had made clear its wish to deal with Bridniclir and Anwir after hearing Asthore’s revelations of the witch’s curse.

“My armies are moving to meet them. They will try to hold them as close to the Plain of Eibhlin as possible.  It is as open as anywhere in Evanheir, and I hope the few who live there have managed to get away.”

“My scouts have seen most of your people fleeing the advancing army,” said Llyr.  “There have been no casualties yet.”

“Thank you.  Please keep me informed.  We seem to be able to channel our thoughts to speak with one or more.  This is a valuable tool for us!”  Asthore complemented the pack as a whole then, and sent them her well wishes.  With that she called to her personal guard and galloped out to join her generals and her army. Despite the objections of the entire Queen’s Council, the fiery young queen had made it clear that she at least would be present and visible to her soldiers.

Beyond the mountains on the brightening plain Bridniclir turned to Anwir and smiled a wicked smile.  “Your former queen is herself foolishly coming to meet us with her paltry army,” she gloated.  “We should be able to deal with all of our problems at once.”

“Do not underestimate the people of Evanheir, my lady, or that redheaded firebrand.  She may still be young and the tenderhearted healer I left for you, but I doubt the steel in her spirit has weakened.”

“I will show you what I can do with steel, you simpering fool,” the sorceress sneered.  “I am growing tired of you and your weaknesses.”  With that she uttered a single word and, with a wave of a wicked hand, Anwir and the horse on which he sat were instantly changed to stone, a granite statue to fools.  “And that is what can happen when you give me your blood and your spirit,” she laughed.

“Rhychdir,” she turned to her general, “send your troops on to the city.  Ignore the farms and villages except as you need food and water for the men and horses. I am going to take a smaller group through the mountains.  Gather outside the city; have the quartermasters make camp as if for a siege, but keep the men at the ready with their horses.  I will send word when I am ready for our planned assault on the palace.”

Aod and three of his packmates watched from the edge of the forest as Bridniclir ordered her army to move.  He felt the remorse from Asthore with his report on the demise of Anwir, but knew even as he heard the dead king’s assessment that Queen Asthore did indeed possess that steely spirit.  The wolf was proud to be of her pack.  They melted farther into the shadows of the mountain as the dark witch rode in with her troop.

The news of Anwir’s death did cause Asthore a moment’s grief, but she grieved for his foolishness, and more for the fact that her children would have to deal with these and other disparaging details of their father’s life.  It had taken her some doing to help them try to understand his absence. She hoped that they were grown and confident enough to deal with his villainy and his death.

Her human and her wolf scouts were reporting on the movements of the enemy, and the army of Evanheir was prepared to meet them in the field and at the palace if necessary.  General Farrell, her most capable commander, was hurrying his troops toward the Plain of Eibhlin, hoping to hold the opposing force there. Asthore, deciding she wanted to be close to the wolves and to have some vantage point, rode into the mountains.

Llyr had gone into Edan’s cave seeking a quiet place where he could monitor the many messages he was receiving and to plan. He felt Bridniclir’s dark malevolence approaching from the south, seemingly heading directly for the cave that had saved his people from her ancient curse.  Asthore, her shining spirit rising up the mountainside like the sun, was ascending toward him, as well.  He growled in his frustration to lead an attack on the sorceress despite the odds against him, but he held to his frustrating promise to the queen. Knowing that this showdown was inevitable, and hoping to do what he could to help, he called most of his pack to him.

Before any could arrive at the sanctuary cave, Llyr seemed to feel another presence with him.  The air shimmered and grew light until standing before him in the middle of the chamber was a tall man of wolfish features.  His head was a mane of black streaked with silver like the coat Llyr wore. Pointed ears twitched back and forth as if listening closely to the sounds of the cave and the world beyond. He turned golden eyes on the black wolf.

“Llyr, King in the Mountains, grandson of my grandson of my grandson for long ages, I am Edan.  The time has come at last, and you must hear me well.”

“Edan!  Grandfather!  How is this possible?” stammered Llyr.

“Magic calls to magic, my son. Time runs on and the spell winds down to its inevitable conclusion.  The day is here that my clan will once again walk among our fellow men or truly become the wolves we appear to be.  It is up to you and the pack, and the queen whose heart has opened the way for you.”

“What does this have to do with Asthore?”

“She knows the prophetic incantation of the spell’s ending and kept it from you in an attempt to spare you in the coming battle. Hear this, Llyr:”

“They will answer the call where their lord once stood.

They will hear the heart that is true and good.

They will acknowledge the power they cannot refuse.

They will honor the promise they dare not lose.

They will again be men as they are called by blood.

They will again be men as they are called by love.”

“You promised her that you would stay out of the fight, but it is she you must protect!”

“But Edan, my lord, how can we fight against Bridniclir’s magic and the army she brings with her?  We have no weapons but stealth and tooth and claw! We are outnumbered almost ten to one even with the small force she brings up the mountain. I know each one of us would give his or her life for Asthore.  We have loved her since she walked these forests as a young girl, and now that she knows us, too, we feel that we belong with her.”

“Think, Llyr.  You know these woods and rocks better than any other creature. Wolf you may be, but you have a wolf’s cunning and the reason of a man.  The men and horses the witch brings have their own fear of you. Even Bridniclir is unsure of what you have become.  As for her magic, yes, she is powerful, but she is coming to a more powerful place as she learned so very long ago.  Still, you must do what you can to protect Asthore.  She has opened her mind and heart to you.  She is the key to all that is possible.  It may be that there is even more.  Trust her. Trust your own heart, too.”

“We will do as you say, Grandfather. Let us hope it is enough.”

“Peace is my hope for you, King Llyr of the Mountains. Good fortune to you.”

With that the insubstantial presence of the ancient wolf-man dimmed and faded into the emptiness of his cave once more. Llyr felt his wolves approaching, quick behind them the cold darkness of the witch’s soulless spirit, and the warm light of Asthore’s flaming heart.

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“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 10—Wolf King”

On the plain below the mountain the two armies threw themselves at one another in thunderous charges and the lightning clash of steel on steel.  The air was filled with clouds of arrows.  Screams of agony from wounded soldiers and horses pierced the rising fog of dust. Blood ran into the clear streams soon turned red on their course to the sea.  Asthore was aware of the noise of the battle and grew even more resolved as she thought of her countrymen and women fighting and dying for their land and their homes.  Somehow they would prevail against Anwir’s forces, especially the sorceress who had been the bane of her existence all these years.

After so many joyful adventures in her snowy mountains, this ride with her guards on the well-known paths made her heart ache. Glimpses of her escort of wolves now and then gave her some sense of security, but she did not like to think of what might happen with these new friends and their mountain home, either. As large as these great beasts were—half again the size of their more common brothers and sisters—Llyr’s pack was even more stealthy, and she was sure no one of her guard realized they were being shadowed by the pack.  Now and then one of the horses shied from a cross breeze scented with wolf, but the riders were paying attention to their track and looking for more human intruders.

The queen intended to make the area of Edan’s cave her temporary headquarters yet still keep the cave itself secret from her men, but she needed to be close to Llyr, to take comfort in his strength and the ready information from the scouting pack.  The vantage point of the high rocks also gave her a clear view of the distant plain even if it was many miles away.  It would be like watching a chess match from high in a stadium.

Up the other side of the mountain came the growing shadow that was Bridniclir’s malevolent darkness.  She felt the presence of the young queen, and something else she knew but could not name.  Confident in her power, the witch pressed her troop hard through the drifts and over the icy trail.  Now and again she heard a horse whinny in fear and a rider curse and assumed it was the unfamiliar mountain path, but these incidents were also often accompanied by the smell of blood and death that was too close to be the battle raging below. Still, she gave her mortal allies no real thought.  Ahead was the battle for which she had prepared for centuries.

Before either cavalcade reached their inevitable rendezvous, outriders from both sides began to clash.  Asthore did not have a large force with her because she thought hers was merely a guarding detail.  It soon became apparent to her, however, that they were encountering a larger force, and she hurried her band of soldiers to reach the vantage point of the high rocks. She was beginning to see individual skirmishes and realized that her wolves were doing more now than merely flanking her movements and reporting the enemy’s position. If not for Ivy’s surefooted progress, at one point she would have lost her seat when a charging rider wearing Anwir’s colors raced to intercept her and was met first by a brindled wolf that seemed to appear from the base of a massive pine.

The wolf leapt at the rider to tear him from his saddle, but the warhorse scented the wolf and reared before the beast could reach the knight.  Armor-plated greaves offered no purchase for the wolf’s massive jaws, and it slid ineffectually to the side.  The trained horse danced on its hind legs, pirouetted its great bulk, and two steel-shod hooves came fatally down on the wolf’s head.  Asthore cried out in anguish at the scene, but knew that her four-footed soldier had saved her life.  She vowed that it had not died in vain, as she pledged in her heart to all who fought for Evanheir that day.

Putting her heels to her laboring mare, Asthore broke into the clearing of the great amphitheatre, and her guard formed a protective shield wall before her.  On the rocks above, the wolf pack assembled and howled its defiance to the approaching enemy.  Horses shied, riders cursed and looked with wonder over their shoulders at the enormous wolves behind them, but all held their ground.  On came Bridniclir and the soldiers of the dead king.

Asthore’s guard couched lances, fronted shields, and met what was a relatively feeble charge as the enemy riders tried to attack from the snow-packed trail below them.  Uphill, and without the speed of a full charge, they were easily stymied or completely repelled, but still men and horses fell in agony as the horror-stricken queen looked on.  The wolves, too, had raced from their high perch and, leaping from rocks, unseated riders or hamstrung horses, but they also suffered in their combat.

Bridniclir had hung back as her soldiers attacked. She had dismounted and in a small clearing now turning black with a sorcerous fog, chanted an incantation of power. This was the moment for which she had waited.  All she had to do was unleash her spell and it would level this rock-strewn wolf’s lair and destroy everyone before her.  She had no care that those who fought for her would suffer the same fate as her enemies. Raising her voice and her hands, she flung the invisible force at Asthore, the focal point of the battle.

Below in the palace, high in his tower, Kunsgnos had watched in a magical eye both the battle on the plain and the forays up the mountainside.  He had, many years before, denounced the use of his power as any kind of offensive weapon, but many times he had used his knowledge and skills to defend against others who sought to do harm to Evanheir and any creature that dwelled in the kingdom. As Bridniclir had grown in her evil strength, so had Kunsgnos become stronger and held the land under his aegis.

When the witch unleashed her blast of destruction, Kunsgnos sent his guarding strength to form a barrier before his queen and her soldiers and Edan’s cave.  No sooner had he projected that shield but he also felt a similar force come from the cave itself and recognized the imprimatur of the wolf kings, both Edan and Llyr.  Those two, spirit and beast, had felt Asthore’s need.  The ancient spirit knew that this was the long awaited time of release or eternal imprisonment.  The living beast felt his love for Asthore become a power that joined with his ancestor’s desire for vengeance and the mage’s desire for peace.  Their combined powers met the destroying wave of evil.

The earth of that mountain stronghold and the air around it seemed to explode as these magics met.  Boulders three times the size of horse and rider were heaved skyward.  Towering pines were felled like matchsticks.  The concussive noise itself shook loose an avalanche of snow that roared down the mountainside. Within the cave Llyr was thrown violently to the floor of the chamber and pierced with shards of granite. In the amphitheatre and around it, all were hammered to the ground and then tossed like leaves into the air, crushed beneath the falling rocks and trees, impaled by branches, lances, swords, and arrows.

Some of Asthore’s men and nearby wolves had thrown themselves toward her as best they could to try and protect her from Bridniclir’s blast and the upheaval of the mountain. Most suffered for their bravery. The queen was not spared.

Asthore had been flung from her horse and slammed against the protective wall of the arena.  She bled from a head wound and from the projected rocks and splinters of wood. When those near her could stand, they discovered the queen unconscious and suffering most from a gaping wound in her side.  The wolves howled their anger and frustration.

Their raised voices drew Asthore from her stupor and she gasped in pain.  Despite this, her first words were to ask about her troop and the wolves.

“How have we fared?” she thought to Aod when she saw the blood striped white wolf standing before her.  “What of Bridniclir?”

“Lady, you must be still,” countered Aod. “I will see about the state of the battles, but we must find you aid!”

“If Bridniclir is able to continue, we must prepare again to fight her!”  Asthore yelled and gasped with the effort speak and to rise.  Even her concern could not put color back in her cheeks, however. The captain of her guard, his helmet gone, his left arm missing at the elbow, knelt beside her and, through gritted teeth admonished her to lie still.

“Be calm.  Help is coming.  The black witch is gone,” he said.  “Whatever power she threw at us, despite the damage it did, recoiled back on her as if it had hit an invisible wall and she simply disappeared like she had been erased from the world. She is no more. Those of her soldiers who survived here have seemingly come out of an enchantment, as well, and have laid down their arms and begged for clemency.  My lady, the captain tells me that Anwir was killed by the witch before the battle began.”

A spasm of pain wracked her body, and in her agony Asthore called, “Llyr!  Llyr, my king! Where are you?” Feebly at first, but soon more clearly she heard him answer.

“Lady, I am coming,” and he limped toward her from around a boulder.

The soldiers, suddenly aware of the wolves in their midst, gasped at the realization, but remembering what they had witnessed during the battle, accepted their presence then as allies.  A few who had managed to stand still started to object as the black wolf drew toward their queen, but she raised a bloody hand to forestall them.

“You promised me that you would stay out of this, Llyr, you and the pack!”

“We could not, my queen.  We were commanded by Edan himself to help you defeat Bridniclir, and to protect you.  Although she is gone, it seems, you have not escaped harm.  I can tell it is grave with you.”

The wolf king struggled to stay upright, but he came to stand beside Asthore.  She saw that he, too, was bleeding badly from scores wounds, and reached up to caress his muzzle and pull on an ear.

“If Evanheir is safe, and you and those of the pack who survived, I have achieved my purpose.”

Her eyes flickered as she fought to remain conscious. Llyr moved closer. Although his own wounds were already beginning to close with the wolves’ miraculous healing power, as he bent to examine Asthore’s horrific injury, some of his blood dripped into the purpling gash.  He drew back in mortification when he saw this.  Then he and the assembled company were astonished to see her wound begin to close on its own accord!  In moments, too, the color returned to her cheeks and her breathing became stronger.

“Oh, Llyr, so many have died, my people and our pack mates.  My heart aches for them all! You should not have risked so much for us.”

“We did it for ourselves as well as for you, our queen.”

Asthore raised herself, but gingerly, and draped an arm around him.  “Oh, Llyr, my king.  You have my heart, King in the Mountains. How I have come to love you! You have saved the kingdom and me.”

This confession and recognition opened Llyr’s eyes and his heart.  “Yes, Asthore. You have my love, as well, and the love of all the pack.  You truly are our queen; my queen.”

Once again the ravaged mountainside swam in glimmering magic.  Bridniclir was dead, and now her ancient spell was releasing, as well.  The wolves cried out as they realized their bodies were changing. The soldiers around them gasped in witness to the transformations.  Where once were the ferocious wolves that had fought beside them, now there were appearing men and women.  The varied coats of deep fur were receding, ears and noses shortening, claws and paws becoming fingers and hands.  As the transformations became more complete, some of the soldiers had wits enough to find capes and tattered saddle blankets to offer as covering for the now unclothed wolf pack.

Asthore watched in fascination as Llyr’s heavy mane of silver-streaked sable became the hair on a noble head with golden eyes that flashed at her in love and with humor at her sudden embarrassment. Her captain, his mangled arm in tourniquet and sling now, handed Llyr his own cape of office and the king draped it around himself.  All the wolf’s wounds had healed, and for the first time, he rose on two unsteady legs. Drawing to his full height, he stood a head above the tallest of Asthore’s soldiers, the conditioning of years living and hunting the mountain obvious in his physique.  The others of the pack also presented imposing figures even in their slapdash clothing.  Asthore looked on them all, the former wolves and her brave soldiers, with a full heart.

She stood, her strength returned with the wolf’s blood cure, and put her arm through Llyr’s.  With a smile she addressed them.

“You and those on the plain below have saved our kingdom.  We need to go and do what we can for those who have suffered most, including those who were slaves to Bridniclir.  The kingdom must be put to right, and all Twelve Kingdoms of Tabrimon must hear of The Wolves of Evanheir!”

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“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pts 7-8”

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 7—Lineage”

The Queen’s Council met immediately after Anwir and his retinue cleared the palace gates.  Her twelve advisors, peers of the realm representing every geographic region of Evanheir, were usually a sanguine group Asthore could rely on to chew thoroughly every problem.  They liked to debate issues, see all sides, and try to come to consensus when they made a decision, hopefully one that was beneficial to everyone in the kingdom. They were also seasoned by years of experience.  Some were soldiers, some businesspersons, some managers of large farming estates, some plied the rivers.  Six were men; six were women.  This discussion was a ticklish one.

Some of the counselors had fond recollections of Anwir—before he became enthralled to the sorceress—and thought he might be “salvaged” with the right influences.  They also were more inclined to have a king for a ruler than a queen despite Asthore’s successful rule.  Others distrusted him entirely because of that same relationship they had before and their own run-ins with him before he vanished twenty years ago.  All feared a bloody contest and what it could do to Evanheir and her people.  For the most part, they were a peaceful lot, but those who had sought conquest had learned that the people of Evanheir could be pushed only so far.

When the discussion went to the supper hour, a meal was ordered to the council chambers, and Asthore called a recess in the debate while they made their repast.  She told them to proceed without her if she did not return when it was time to begin, and left them with some puzzled looks, but no one questioned her. Asthore wanted to seek out the one person she thought might shed more light on this topic, and she wanted to ask about the wolves, as well.

In a high tower of the palace lived a mage who had been chief teacher and historian and seer for at least three kings before Anwir ascended to the throne.  Kunsgnos had foresworn any magic that might be used as a weapon, but he was a better historical record than any book in the royal library. Asthore trusted him explicitly because she knew he only had the welfare of the kingdom as his purpose. She always enjoyed speaking with him, and she looked forward to their conversations for the pleasure of his company as well as for his guidance.

“Come, Asthore.  Welcome!” came the call from the other side of the closed door before she could raise her hand to the knocker.

“Kunsgnos, it is always good to see you, my old friend!” She stepped inside a warm and cluttered room and greeted him with an embrace reminiscent of childhood and a kiss on the cheek above his snowy beard.

“Ah, you flatterer.  Sit down, my queen.  Your tea is waiting there on the table by the fire.”

“I wish I knew how you did that,” she grinned as she took her seat.  “I know I am not that predictable.  If you knew I was coming, do you know why I am here?”

“I saw Anwir and his troop come and go…rather quickly after so long an absence, too…and assumed you would make your way here eventually, but I sense, too, that he is not the only purpose for this visit?”

“What?  You mean I’ve stumped the Great Kunsgnos?  It’s unheard of!”

“Oh, stop.  You can flatter me, but do not flatter yourself, Your Uppityness.” He chuckled and Asthore stuck her tongue out at him.  “I heard the wolves, also, and know that you have been into the mountains.  It is time, I think.”

“Time for what, Kunsgnos?  What do you think I want of you?”

“Answers, as always.  History.  Truth. I can tell the passage of time by the questions you pose.  When you need to know something truly important, you come to me because it is time you knew.  This time is one of the hardest, Asthore, but it is also the time with the most promise…but also a time whose coming I have feared the most.”

“Tell, me, Kunsgnos.  What do you know of my wolves, and of Anwir?”

“Oh, your wolves? Yes, I suppose they are, my child. First, what do you already know?”

Asthore related the sketchy tale Aod had given her of the ancient transformation.  Kunsgnos raised his eyebrows but did not say anything when she first mentioned that she had actually conversed with the wolves.  It was obvious that she accepted it already as a Given because it did not even occur to her that he might find it miraculous!

“That fits with the old stories,” he said when she had finished her brief recitation.  “You have, of course, guessed that there is more to it.”

“I had hoped as much, anyway. What can you tell me, Kunsgnos?”

“There is a great deal more to that seemingly overnight transformation of ‘your wolves,’ as you call them, than Aod could tell you.  It did happen long, long ago, before the Twelve Kingdoms had been carved out of the melting ice and snow which drove that wolfish clan of men into their sacred cave. Here is where their story and Anwir’s—and yours, actually—first begins.  The sorceress, Bridniclir, is an ancient incarnation of malevolence in our land.  Her powers were checked somewhat by a synod of all the most powerful wizards and sorceresses in the land when I was only becoming aware of my own abilities.  In that early, coldest time, however, when she herself was relatively new to her power, she was challenged by the leader of those men of the cave.  He knew she was evil, and he defied her when she tried to enslave his clan.  A brave man, but not a man of magic, only his cunning and his truth of spirit saved him and his people.”

“Bridniclir heard his challenge and attempted to kill them all, but Edan, he who could be named the first king of all Tabrimon, knew the cave he had discovered was a place sacred to the planet itself, to all of Nature.  He hurried his clan inside, hoping either to hide from the witch or thwart her power altogether.”

“Her killing spell proved ineffectual. Edan’s sanctuary saved their lives. If she could not kill them, however, she could curse them.  So Bridniclir enchanted them, changed them into wolves, the ancestors of the pack that rules our mountains.  They are beasts, but they are also cursed in that they are aware of their human natures. This spell, though, as with all spells, has a catch, a possible end.”

“A catch? What do you mean? Can it be reversed? If so, why hasn’t it?” Asthore was intrigued by this history, and, her sympathetic nature easily tapped, hoped that she might help if she knew how.

“The first part of the release from the spell seems to have happened,” admitted the sage.  He looked at her closely then, and with a new appreciation of her. “The wolves are…or were…doomed to their speechless existence until they met a heart that would speak to them. You, my dear, seem to be blessed to have been their helper.”

Asthore gasped and felt as if her heart leapt into her throat; her hand covered her mouth.  Then excitedly the young woman exclaimed,  “It seemed so natural!  Llyr simply looked up at me and spoke, and I heard him in my mind!”

“And who is Llyr?”

“He is the King in the Mountains, the leader of the pack.  I went because I heard their cries the first night, and only his the next; when I couldn’t stand the sound of his pain, I went looking for him and found him lying beside his mate. They had both been shot. Cuini, his queen, was gone and I couldn’t help her, but I was able to remove the arrow from Llyr’s side.”

“You said this ability to speak to the wolves was the first part of their release.  What is left to do, and what will happen to them if the spell is broken?”

Kunsgnos looked long at the young queen, then stood and walked to his window.  There he remained for some time, silently staring into the moonlit mountain. Asthore knew he needed time to think, and she did not interrupt his deliberations.  Eventually he turned and once more looked into her eyes as if trying to fathom the depths of her spirit.

“What is it, Kunsgnos?  Tell me!”

The mage sat beside her and took her hands. With a sigh he recited,

 

“They will answer the call where their lord once stood.

They will hear the heart that is true and good.

They will acknowledge the power they cannot refuse.

They will honor the promise they dare not lose.

They will again be men as they are called by blood.

They will again be men as they are called by love.”

“But what does it mean?” cried Asthore.

“I think it means war, dear heart.”

*   *   *   *   *   *

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 8—Sorcery”

The council was still meeting, still debating how to react to Anwir’s reappearance and probable attempt to oust Asthore from the throne, when she returned from her conversation with Kunsgnos. Although she did not share with them what she had learned concerning the wolves, she did use the mage’s insights to convince them the kingdom needed to ready itself for battle. Generals were charged with seeing to their troops. The Palace Guard was put on high alert.  Proclamations for the citizens concerning the events of the former king’s return and the possibility for war were prepared and disseminated across Evanheir.  Couriers were sent to the other kingdoms to inform them, also, of the situation, petition these allies for promises of aid and to refuse sanctuary to Anwir.

By the time they sought their beds, it was well after midnight.  Asthore stood on her balcony again and thought of all she had learned that day. It had been an amazing, confusing, and revelatory few days.  Although she should be exhausted, she found that her mind was sharp and clear and her body tensed as if for immediate action.

“Llyr, King in the Mountains, can you hear me?” She softly spoke aloud and sent her thoughts toward the place where she had left the pack so recently.

“You call; I am here, Queen Asthore,” came his surprisingly strong reply.

“I need to meet with you soon. I have much to tell you, and I think I need your help.”

“Come when you can; we will be watching for you.”

As if he had made the decision for her, Asthore turned from the balcony and found her trunk and her hunting clothes. She would get no sleep this night.

On the other side of the palace mountain, in a darkness made of shadow and sorcery, Anwir fumed at his reception at his former court and rejection by Asthore.  Beside him a woman as dark as the night calmly laughed at his tirade.

“Peace, Anwir,” advised Bridniclir, for this was indeed the ancient sorceress whose enchanted youthfulness belied her great age. “They have no hope of resisting our army or my magics.  Tomorrow we will return and simply take what is yours.  Then we will set in motion the conquest of all of Tabrimon.”

“I am sorry, my lady, but I do not yet have your confidence.  My army is not large, and I do not fully understand your powers.  Cloaks of darkness and some farseeing are not going to be enough against the warriors of my former kingdom, especially if they receive aid from Gallaghern and Haldis.  Those two kingdoms bordering Tabrimon can send aid overnight.”

“The messengers sent to the other kingdoms will never leave Tabrimon tonight.  I have already seen to that.  You still doubt my powers, do you?  In these two decades you have not gained confidence as you have watched me throw off the spells that were cast to bind me?”

“I have seen you become more beautiful, Bridniclir, as well as more demanding of me.  But, yes, I have witnessed you bend time and space, cloud men’s minds, and even more recently wield a power greater than a company of men and dispatch our foes with terrible slaughter.  It was a gruesome thing to watch, I must admit.”

“Ha, ha!”  Bridniclir laughed with humorless mirth.  “I am afraid you grow weak, Anwir, and I will not have a weak king. Trust me, obey me, love me, my pet, or I can most assuredly find someone who will!”

Each word she spoke seemed to become harder, to change the very air around them.  Anwir felt it press against him, crushing him as if he were under a great rock. “Enough!” he strained to plead. “You are my queen, Bridniclir! I could not have another!”

“Good.”  Her disgust was barely concealed from him.  “Now listen to how we will deal with the upstart Queen of Evanheir and her pitiful armies.”

At the edge of the forest Aod again met Asthore and Ivy.  With the wolfish grin that seemed to be his face to the world, he rose from the concealing snow and startled both horse and rider.

“Aod!” Asthore shouted as she fought to keep her seat when Ivy shied away from the sudden specter of the white wolf. “Your tricks are not funny!”

She could have sworn his quick bark was laughter at her expense, but Aod quickly apologized.  “Forgive me, lady!  I did not mean to startle you or your horse.  I am eager to take you to Llyr and hear your news.”

Ivy had finally recognized her wolfish companion and calmed with that knowledge and Asthore’s handling.  “Let us be off then, but I do not entirely believe you, King’s Jester!  But it is good to see you again.  Tell me how my patient is doing. He sounds hale after even so short a time.”

Still seeming to grin at her, Aod turned to climb the mountain path, and quickly leading them on, reported on his king’s health.

“Our healing is faster than most,” he said. “Some of the magic of our clan’s transformation, we have always thought, benefitted us in this way. Llyr is almost fully recovered with your medications and his own abilities.”

“That is truly miraculous!  He was gravely wounded barely two days ago! The wound was terrible. I was not sure he would survive my surgery.”

“Some of this power is simply his will,” Aod explained. “If he had decided to join Cuini, you could not have saved him.  I believe that your desire that he should live did as much as your ministrations.”

“Whatever the cause, I am happy that he is healthy. We are going to need all of you to help us.”

She did not explain further, despite Aod’s prodding. “I would rather go through this only once and with the king alone or with him and whoever he decides should listen. It is unusual and complicated.” Aod seemed satisfied and simply trotted faster up the mountainside.

Llyr met them at the gathering place. The rest of the pack was in attendance, as well.  When Asthore saw him, she fairly flung herself from her saddle and, kneeling beside him, threw her arms impetuously around his neck.  “Oh, Llyr!  It is so wonderful to see you safe and well!” She exclaimed.

“My queen!” said the startled wolf, “How unladylike!” She could hear his pleased smile in his mocking address and simply gave him another hug.

“You will just have to get used to it, my lord king,” she said with feigned haughtiness, “for this is who I am in the mountains and always have been!”

“Yes, Asthore, we know.  We have watched you grow into your crown after seeing you nearly break your crown numerous times tripping on branches and stumbling over rocks. I seem to remember a rather spectacular tumble into a very cold creek some years back!” Now he was outright laughing, and the pack joined him in a barking, howling chorus.

Asthore blushed.  “It isn’t very polite to spy on a lady, you know!”

“I’m not sure ‘lady’ is the word I would use to describe the wild young woman we were watching!”

With that Asthore stood and drew herself into a regal, nose-high pose and turned on the gathered pack.  “That will be enough from you!” She ordered in her most commanding voice.  The assembly hushed immediately and lowered their heads. Some even rolled over in submissive poses until she laughed at them.  “So there!”

“Now,” Asthore continued, we have serious matters to discuss.  “I think you heard me on my way here as I explained the situation at court.  Another, darker aspect of that has arisen, however.”

“What do you mean by ‘darker’?” questioned Llyr.

“Magical,” she informed him with a shudder.

“Then perhaps we need to go to a safer, more private place.  Follow me. It isn’t far.”

Leaving Ivy safely stabled in the arena’s shelter, Asthore and the pack moved quickly around the great rocks. Not one hundred yards from there, even as closely as she was following, Llyr turned to his right and seemed to disappear into the mountainside.  Another couple of paces and Asthore realized that he had slipped through a narrow split in the massive granite face of the mountain that was hidden from view by a switchback and the shrubs and trees that grew around it.

The wolves could see well enough in the immediate darkness, but Asthore was blind.  She stopped briefly to dig in her satchel for a candle and sulfur matches. Its feeble light showed her the path and then was almost swallowed up by the chamber they entered.  Llyr climbed onto a rock shelf that formed a ledge around half the chamber.  Asthore followed, and the pack filed in and sat below them to listen.

“My friends, I have heard more of your history from Kunsgnos, the Mage at court.”

“We know him as a very old friend, Asthore,” replied Llyr.  “Although we could not speak to him, he seemed to know us and did not fear our presence when we followed him on his treks through the mountains.  I know he is very old.  Even my grandsire spoke of Kunsgnos as an old man!  I am glad to know he is well.  We have not seen him in some time.”

“Yes, he is definitely ancient, but he does not look any older to me now than he did when I was a toddler applauding his entertainments.  What he told me earlier today, however, was more curious knowledge than anything he has ever imparted to me.”

As she related the history of Edan and Bridniclir and the resulting transforming curse, she could feel the anger and tension and exasperation the gathered pack emanated.  Llyr explained that some of this was part of what they knew, but when she further explained that there was a possibility of ending the curse—and that Asthore was, perhaps, the key—created a cacophony of questions in her mind and a howling, barking din in the cave.

“Quiet, please!” commanded the king, and soon Asthore had peace again.  Sensing her anxiety and knowing the daylight was soon upon them, Llyr moved to another problem. “And now, my queen, how is this of a part of Anwir’s visit and your need of us?”

“We believe Anwir is plotting to take the crown by force since we did not just hand it back to him.  And that Bridniclir is with him.”

This revelation did not result in the uproar of her earlier news.  Instead it produced from each throat a spontaneous growl, and the hair rose on the back of the queen’s slim neck.

“Although I did not growl,” she said when it was again quiet, “I admit that I felt the same way.  We are preparing for war, but no one seems to know where Anwir and his troops are or how large a force it might be.  Whether or not the sorceress is able to provide deadly aid in battle is a serious question, as well.”

“I think we can find them, wherever they are in the mountains, and we can let you know of their movements. We will also harry and hinder them as much as possible.”

“Please,” begged Asthore, “do not put yourselves in harm’s way!  We can deal with this threat, I’m sure.  I do not want any of you hurt or killed because of this usurper and his witch.”  What she had not given in her account of the curse was the verses Kunsgnos had recited.  She could not bring herself to allow them to come to harm as prophesied in the rhyme. The second half of the spell would have to be broken some other way!

“We will see what comes,” said the great black wolf, and he looked squarely in her eyes and wondered at that closed place in her mind.

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“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 5-6”

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 5—Return of the King”

Queen Asthore returned to find the palace in an uproar. Everyone from her chambermaids to her most trusted advisors seemed ready to lock her in her rooms!

“What is all the fuss, Enid?” she asked of her former nursemaid as she changed out of her hunting clothes.  “It’s not like this is the first time I’ve been into the mountains by myself!”

“My lady,” exclaimed the flustered old woman, “you gave us a fright when you weren’t here this morning!  It took that oaf of a stableman until well after breakfast to realize no one but he knew what had happened to you!  I thought the Lord Chamberlain Gervase was going to have his head on a pike for keeping a secret that the poor man didn’t even know he knew!”

“Now that can’t be all of it,” demanded Asthore. “What has happened that they’re not telling me yet?”

“It’s not my place, Lady!” stammered the good woman. “Gervase told us to keep mum until he could see you.”

“Come now, Enid, give me the straight truth that will be tortured in politics when I hear it from him.”

In a fearful voice just above a whisper, never looking Asthore in the eyes, Enid confided in the queen she had raised as her own daughter.  “Dear girl, they say the king has returned and demands his throne and his queen!”

Asthore felt her knees go weak, and for some reason the walls seemed to swirl.  She heard the old woman gasp, and the next thing she knew, she was lying on the cold marble floor with her head in Enid’s lap.  “The king?  Anwir is here? Why?  How?”

“I’m sorry, my lady.  You will have to see the Lord Chamberlain. I do not know.”

“Now, up with you.  We need to make a queen of you again.”

“Oh, Enid.  This is not a day for such news.  I need to rest, not deal with insurrection!”

“Calm yourself!  You must keep your wits.  You are not the same woman he left with two small children and a kingdom to govern! Remember, you are Queen Asthore and your people depend upon you!” After years of caring for her young charge and watching her grow from a strong-headed child with skinned knees to an iron-willed but soft-hearted monarch, Enid lapsed briefly into her role of governess, but caught herself with an embarrassed smile. “Forgive me.  I am out of line!”

“No, thank you, my old friend. It is the best reminder. I depend on your forthrightness. All right.  Please have the girls draw a bath for me and let’s find something fit for the me to wear.”

“Now that’s my queen!  What do you think of the emerald velvet?  It goes so well with that flaming head of hair and matches your eyes.”

“That will do, yes.  And I want the wolf’s head necklace today, I think. I am going to need every talisman of strength I can find.”  Asthore’s thoughts went then to Llyr and hoped her new friend was healing and safe. A smile came to her lips when she felt Aod’s wry humor and caught his response to her involuntary query.

“Miss us so soon, my queen?” came the wolf’s thoughts. “All is well here, thanks to you. Father sleeps and grows stronger by the hour.  We have heard the arriving troop and felt your concern.  Are you well?”

The queen glanced at Enid, giving orders to the serving girls, and turning to the window, murmured, “It may be a challenging afternoon, but I am most concerned with Llyr and the pack.  I don’t know when I will be able to return to the mountain. Be safe.”

Enid interrupted the “conversation” and Asthore barely caught Aod’s farewell, “And you, my queen.”

With that the ladies prepared to meet the challenges of the day, for Anwir had come from out of the east with a large, rather menacing retinue, appearing as if by magic at the end of the valley and marching to the palace with flags flying at about the same time Asthore was drawing the arrow from Llyr’s chest.  She knew visitors had arrived when she stabled Ivy, but had no idea of the importance of this sudden chaos.

She had dressed and was finishing an early afternoon meal, her first of the day, when she received word that her Lord Chamberlain was insisting on seeing her.  Asthore knew the wait had been a torture for Gervase, and she felt sorry for her trusted advisor.

“Gervase, I am sorry for keeping you so long. Thank you for giving me time to gather myself and prepare for the afternoon. I have heard the news, or some of it. What else can you tell me?”

“Ah, that Enid.  The woman could never keep a secret from you.”

“Now, now.  It’s not as if I couldn’t tell someone important had suddenly arrived at the gates. But Anwir!  Gervase, what is going on?”

“I am not sure I know it all yet, my lady, but your husband has returned, and not from the dead, it would seem. On the bald face of it, he demands his queen and his kingdom!  Fortunately the Captain of the Guards was awake when the king’s retinue came cantering up the pike and was able to call the entire force of the palace guards to arms and station.  Although outwardly this has been handled with diplomacy, I fear that the king would resort to force if he were not obviously outnumbered.”

“We shall see about that!” exclaimed Asthore, her color rising.  She had suspected trouble, of course, the moment she knew the identity of this visiting “prince.”

“Gervase, speak with the council privately. Determine their individual opinions, although I think I know them all well enough to know they will be my friends in this, and convey to them my strong resolve to remain the ruling queen of Evanheir.  Anwir gave up his throne of his own volition when he left on his fool’s errand twenty years ago.  Nothing here is his except children he neglected.”

“I have already spoken with most of your counselors,” admitted the Lord Chamberlain.  “They are as you say, and hoped this would be your response. I am, however, fearful that Anwir has the intention of seizing power by force if necessary. The Guard is in the palace and outnumbers the party Anwir has with him, but we have no way of knowing what other for forces might be gathering.  The army is on maneuvers in the southern mountains and it will take four days, at least, to get word to the generals and get our forces back to defend the city if necessary.”

“Send word to the generals.  I think I can discover if we are facing a larger foe. No, don’t ask. Now, let’s go meet this fool that has returned to plague us.”

“He is cooling his heels in the audience chambers, waiting on your pleasure, my queen,” Gervase said with a grin. “I will send word to the south and meet you there.”  With that he bowed and hurried out.

Asthore frowned, her green eyes flashing with anger at this intrusion and concern for her people.  Then with a look of fierce determination, she turned back to the windows, opened them to her balcony, and stepping out, whispered to the wind, “Aod, hear me!  I need my pack!”

Immediately she sensed the white wolf’s presence, but her plea had been so forceful, that she felt, too, the minds of several others, including Llyr, who spoke to her.

“We are here, Asthore.  There is trouble in Evanheir, we can feel it in your mind and in the air itself.  How may we help you?”

“Llyr!  Forgive me for disturbing your healing!  I don’t know how to control this new method of speaking.  How are you faring?”

“Thanks to you, I am already stronger. We tend to heal more quickly than others, but my children and friends are also keeping me from getting too active.” She knew he was chafing at the confinement, and his vigor so soon after being so grievously wounded astounded her.

“I would like to see how you are. The energy I feel already from you is astonishing, but you have to take your time.  The wound was severe and too close to your brave heart, my friend!”

“I am well, Asthore.  What of your situation?”

She filled him in briefly on Anwir’s return; then said, “We have no way of knowing if a greater force is gathering at the borders or even in the hidden valleys of Evanheir.  Although we have had no trouble with any of the other Twelve Kingdoms, Anwir has gained a following somewhere.  I need eyes, scouts to look for trouble so that I can be prepared for it.”

“I will send my pack to all the wolves of Evanheir, and we will see what we can find.  We should be able to scour the kingdom before the next day breaks. Call to me if you have any other need.”

“Thank you, Llyr, King in the Mountains. I will let you know what my former husband has to say and look forward to hearing what you discover.  Take care of yourself.”

“We are yours, Queen Asthore.”

With that assurance, she went to meet the man who had left her so long ago.

*   *   *   *   *   *

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 6—Liar King”

The throne upon which Queen Asthore sat was the only chair in the room.  More significantly, perhaps, it was the only throne in the room.  Drawn up in regal majesty, the crown of Evanheir sparkling in her blazing hair, the Queen coolly regarded the man she had not seen in two decades as he seemed all but to slither toward her. She could tell that he was not happy, and she could not have cared less.

Anwir had courted the young Asthore, flattering her by his interest—a king, though only twenty-four, who could not seem to spend enough time with the coltish maid almost ten years his junior. Her parents, too, were wooed, she thought now.  Although they were in the royal lineage, they were far removed and had been simply part of the court, her father holding minor office, her mother once a confidante of the old queen. Anwir had become king when his parents had both perished at sea when their ship had gone down in a storm with all hands.  He had become king at only ten, and had bristled under the guidance of the Council of Regents until his majority.  Then he had been an indifferent if not simply bad ruler who did nothing but indulge his fancies.  The one piece of advice he seemed to heed from his council was that he needed to marry. Why he chose Asthore was a question no one could answer.

Their courtship had been relatively brief, their marriage a progressive disaster.  Anwir grew tired quickly of any hint of domesticity, and monogamy seemed to be beyond his abilities.  Asthore tried, first for Meghan’s sake, then for her and Regan, and when her husband eventually succumbed to the witch who seduced him away from Evanheir, she dedicated herself to the people as she did to her children. Under her steady hand the kingdom had flourished.  She was not about to relinquish to this stranger all that she had sacrificed so much to accomplish.

“Hello, Asthore,” Anwir greeted her without a trace of deference, but a slight sneer of condescension.

Gervase and the rest of the council members visibly blanched at the man’s lack of decorum, but they held their peace. Asthore silently regarded him, holding him in a glittering stare for so long that everyone became uncomfortable, and Anwir looked to Gervase as if wondering if the queen had heard him.

“I wasn’t sure you were still alive, Anwir,” she said when tensions were highest.  “I am more surprised by that, I think, than to see you here.” Queen Asthore was ready to play the game.  “The question, however, is why are you here?”

“Why? My lady, I am King of Evanheir!”

“Twice wrong, Anwir.  You haven’t been king legally for more than ten years, since the council and an assemblage of Peers declared you abdicated.  And we both know that I have not been your lady since shortly after our marriage.  That, too, has been annulled.”

This brought a low murmur to the assembled court, but Asthore and Anwir understood it was more in agreement with her than surprise. He did not seem surprised, however, and with a disdainful grin announced, “I did not come to argue the point with you, Asthore, or anyone else.  The throne is rightfully mine by birth, and I don’t need a wife.”

This caused more than a murmur, and protestations erupted from the crowd.  Here and there the words “Traitor” and “Usurper” could be heard.  Anwir simply smiled at them again.

“Be gone, Anwir.  There is nothing for you here any more.  You are granted by law safe passage to the border, but you are never to return.”

“Yes.  Now is not the time.  I did not expect a warm welcome.  You should do well, however, to expect to see me again.”  With that warning, he turned on his heel and strode toward the doorway.

Asthore had the last word: “Please, do come again, Anwir.  Believe me, we will be expecting you.”

Her confident tone stopped him briefly, but he did not turn around.  In the courtyard his groom gave him the reins to his horse.  Anwir mounted, turned to his Captain of Guards, and commanded, “Back to the company, Captain.  Take note as we pass. We will meet with my generals tonight to plan our return.”  Amid the clattering of hooves as his troops wheeled to follow, Anwir did not notice the howling of the wolves.

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“The Wolves of Evanheir”: Pt 3-4

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 3—Healer”

 “Hello, Asthore. Welcome among us. I am Aod, son and advisor to Llyr and Cuini.  She is gone, we know. Llyr, please, let Asthore help you! We need you with us!”

“My son, is the bowman back among his people?”

“Yes, father, but he is of no consequence here!”

“Aod, tell me that he was not harmed by any of you! You were merely to drive him off!”

“He is fine, Llyr.  His blood he spilled himself.  He tried to put another arrow to his bow when we turned on him, and in his haste to run, stabbed himself in the arm.  You are not fine!”

“Asthore, can you help him?”

“The arrow is deep, next to his heart. Removing it will be risky, but, yes, I can try…IF he will let me. It is his decision, Aod.”

A collective howl came then from the pack. Asthore’s mind was flooded with their pleading with her and with Llyr.

“Enough, my children, my friends,” came the rueful command from the fallen wolf.

“All right, Asthore,” Llyr acceded. “I doubt there is enough time or enough strength left, but go ahead if you will.”

The Queen of Evanheir shuddered then at the flooding emotion of responsibility that came over her.  Gathering herself, she knelt again at the huge black wolf’s side and drew her healer’s bag to her lap.  From the pouch she selected a packet of herbs, a vial of sticky salve, and a roll of gauzy linen.  From her right boot she drew the razor sharp hunting knife sheathed there. It was not the broad-bladed weapons favored by men but a fine thin piece of steel, more filet knife than butcher’s blade.  With it hovering close above where the arrow’s shaft protruded from his barely rising chest, she spoke to Llyr:

“You must be still, King Wolf, despite the pain, or you may indeed slay yourself.  I must probe with my knife as the arrow is drawn out so that the barbs don’t do more damage. Hopefully I can guide it out and not make it worse.”

“Do what you must,” Llyr replied. “The pain is what it is.”

Sprinkling the herbal powder around the wound, Asthore explained, “This may help somewhat, but it takes a while to be fully effective, and I don’t have that much time.”

She almost smiled at what was obviously a mental shrug from her patient, and then set her face grimly for the task ahead. Aod and the pack gathered around. They seemed to send her strength and reassurance as well as simply warm the space with their bodies.

Her knife in her left hand, Asthore reached for the base of the arrow, then carefully inserted the tip of her blade. With her eyes closed in concentration, she looked with her healer’s sense and the fine touch of her hands to guide the blade down the shaft until it reached the steel arrowhead.  There she paused and took a breath and realized that Llyr had not even whimpered. “I’m all right,” she heard him say. “Go on.”

Her right hand tightened slightly on the arrow and gently began backing it out of the wound.  The left hand, controlling the thin blade of her knife, eased the backward-pointing barbs away from muscle, sinew, and bone.  Finally the resistance ended, and Asthore opened her eyes to the bloody arrowhead suspended above the gaping wound.

Quickly she sprinkled more of the anesthetic powder into and around the wound; then spread some of the healing salve over it. This would help the wound to close as well as provide some antiseptic properties.  Next she made a compress of some of the gauze, placed it over the hole in Llyr’s chest, and wrapped the rest of the linen around him, digging a bit into the snow beneath him to get it all the way around. She tucked the loose end into the wrap to hold it securely.

With a sigh, Asthore turned to Aod and the pack, and said to them and her patient, “Now you must see that he is fed, has water, and is kept warm.  Do not let him try to get up or even move about too much for several days!”

“Thank you, Asthore,” said Aod. “We will take care of him, and I’ll lie down on him if he even tries to get up!” he said with a wolfish grin. The other members of the pack sent her their silent thanks, as well.  Then, as one, they seemed to bow before her when she stood to stretch stiff muscles.

“I must return to the castle and see if I can explain my absence without too much trouble.  I intend to find the hunter who has done this damage. Although there is nothing I can do for Cuini, I will see to it that the young man pays for this crime against you. He should know this is not allowed, and even more that it is just wrong!”

Aod nodded and said, “I know we put quite a scare into him.  His bow and the rest of his quiver of arrows were scattered down the mountainside in his haste to get away from us.  We harried him clear to the meadow near the stable.  He won’t be hunting anything for a while.”

“Well, I plan to use this as a reminder to everyone of the laws governing our relationship with all of the creatures of my kingdom.”

“I will return to check on you, Llyr, as soon as I can.”

“I think it is safe to say that I will be here, thanks to you,” said the great black wolf.  “Thank you, again.  I look forward to your return.”  With that he seemed to finally give in to the strain and the anesthetic and fell into a peaceful slumber.

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“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 4—Wolf Tongue”

Aod took over and stationed two wolves to curl next to Llyr for body heat, and assigned two more as sentinels at either side of the amphitheatre.  The rest of the pack he charged to hunt for food for all of them, but mostly for Llyr. Then he turned to Asthore.

“I will go with you as far as the meadow.”

“We will have to see how Ivy abides your company, Aod,” Asthore replied.

“Oh, she won’t mind,” said the wolf. I will speak to her and let her know I mean no harm.  She may be a bit skittish at first, but she will warm up to me.  I’m a very likeable fellow.”  Again she saw that grin and knew he must be the pack’s joker as well as King’s Counselor.

Ivy did, indeed, accept the wolf’s company. Asthore had gotten somewhat used to speaking with the wolf and was reminded then of how strange it was. She asked Aod about his conversation with Ivy and why the horse could not communicate with her in the same way as the wolves.

“Ivy is merely a horse,” he said. “I speak with her in the language of animals.  We of the mountain pack are a bit more than just wolves, as you have already gathered.”

“And how is that?” Asthore wondered. “And why isn’t this known to us? Why have I been honored to learn this secret?”

Aod stepped ahead of Ivy and, blocking the path, sat down and looked up at Asthore.  “I think it must be time for our paths to cross in more ways than one,” he said.

“Llyr’s conversation with you shocked us all. We have not been able to communicate with men until today.  Our world must be changing. According to our stories, long, long ago we, too, were once a race of men who lived in the mountains. It was a time of ice and cold the world had never known before.  We were perishing because we could not withstand the cold, and food was becoming too scarce.”

“Then the leader of the pack—the clan then—led the people into a cave he happened to discover.  It is a sacred place to us still.  It was warm inside, and more than because the twisting entrance blocked the howling winds and snow.  Water was there, seeming to rise from the floor.  They had carried in as much food as they had and all of their belongings. In the shelter of that mysterious cave, they knew they were safe for a time, and everyone eventually slept. The tale does not say how long that sleep lasted.  I doubt anyone ever really knew, but when the people finally woke, they were no longer men. Each one had been transformed into a wolf, larger than any they had ever seen before, and able to speak in the language of wolves, but also in the thought-speak with which we have been able to converse with you today.  The transformation saved them and saved the pack.  We are better equipped for the cold and snow of the high mountains, and better hunters,” he grinned.

“I think this is a revelation that I will keep to myself for a time.  I need to think about how my people will react and what is best for you and your kin,” Asthore thought both to herself and aloud.

“You are wise, my queen,” agreed Aod.

“Aod, why do you…and Llyr as well…call me your ‘queen’? Cuini was your queen, not I.”

“You are Queen of Evanheir, correct?”

“Yes.”

“Then we are your subjects, too. Llyr is called ‘King in the Mountains’ because the pack and the other animals follow him, but you are ruler of all Evanheir.  We have been aware of you, felt your care for all of your subjects, even when we could not speak with you. The pack has been with you since you first dared climb the mountain paths.  Your heart is open, Asthore, and you are well-loved.”

From astride her mare, Asthore bowed to Aod. “I am honored by your deference, Aod, and hope to continue to earn it.  I think my people and my pack may benefit one another greatly, but I have to figure out how best to make that happen.  Some of my people will not understand this at all.”

“Agreed.  Remember that we are here to help and yours to command, my queen.”

“We are almost at the meadow. I will leave you here. If we need you, you will hear us call. Come back to the mountain as soon as you can. I am still fearful for Llyr. I am not ready to lose both father and mother.”

“Oh, Aod.  I am so sorry for your loss.  I heard and felt the pack’s grief the other night.”

“Tonight you will most likely hear us again. We will survive, but we must bear our grief, as well.”

With that he turned and trotted back the way they had come, his great brush of a tail sweeping low behind him. The great white wolf soon disappeared as if swallowed by the mountain itself.  Asthore reined Ivy toward the greening meadow, the lower altitude already starting the progress to spring.  The mare picked up her head at the promise of her warm stable, a bucket of oats, and a good brushing.  The queen, meanwhile, was lost in her thoughts and plans for dealing with this new situation.

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“The Wolves of Evanheir”

This begins a series of ten chapters (maybe more) that is a fantasy/fairy tale short story.

“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 1—Peaceable Kingdom”

Asthore was queen of Evanheir, sixth of the Twelve Kingdoms of Tabrimon.  The king, however, had been gone for almost two decades, off on a sorceress’s quest, the wizards told her, and gone for good.  No one in the kingdom missed him, for he was as fickle and foolhardy and easily led as his quest would indicate.  The young prince had been an infant when his father left, his sister too young herself to really remember.  Both were now almost grown.  Princess Meghan was in a far kingdom practicing the diplomatic skills her mother had taught by example and the healing arts she had learned from that same gentle hand.  It seemed her brother, young Prince Regan, had come by magics of his own and soon would leave his mother’s side to learn the wisdom of the greatest wizards of the Twelve Kingdoms.  The queen was proud, but in the long nights she was dreading the greater loneliness to come.

Evanheir was a good place in the high mountains of the north.  Valleys were fertile and crops were good.  Industry flourished with hardworking people and sensible policies.  As in all places, however, there were the poor, the elderly, children and youngsters who had lost their way or their parents or both, the ill and infirm.  Queen Asthore had not chosen to rule.  She was a caring healer who had been thrust into the role of leadership.  Despite this, she was known by her people as fair of face and faculties alike, generous, kind, and sensible.  Detractors scoffed at her dreams of better lives for her people.  They were usually shouted down or ignored completely.

Friends and advisors had tried to convince the queen to find a new mate, a consort who might take some of the burdens of governing.  Once or twice she had found someone with whom she knew moments of laughter, youthful vigor, possible futures.  None lasted.  Her dreams or her spirit were too large, her independence too real.  Suitors seemed always to expect her to walk behind.

Although Evanheir, like most of the Twelve Kingdoms, was generally peaceful and enjoyed little crime or violence, it was still a matter of grave concern to her counselors that Queen Asthore frequently went out alone among the people.  When she did so after dark, they often chastised her for risking not only her safety but for putting the kingdom at risk.  Asthore was not to be cowed or bowed.  Even as a little girl she had been independent and unafraid.  Curiosity was her teacher; experience her lessons.  Wisdom came in hard knocks, but she wore each bruise as a badge of honor.  Her parents had looked for her some mornings only to have to follow tracks in the snow to discover her high in the mountains astride her favorite horse, plunging through drifts, her laughter echoing across the valleys.  It seemed, too, that the animals of the forest and mountain loved her, and she walked with the great elk or the mountain lion as with the fickle squirrels and flittering birds, and the wolves seemed to be her special guardians, keeping watch over her as she roamed the forest.  She would tell her mother and father that she had more to fear in the alleys of Evanheir than in her mountains, and even then she was not really afraid.  As queen she seldom had those times alone among the pines and was more often alone among the crowds of court.

One night she stood on her balcony in the quicksilver light of a full moon and reminisced about those treks in the wilds.  It had been a trying day, arguing about providing education and training and support for some of her most needy subjects instead of merely creating bread lines and warming shelters.  Meghan had sent word that she would not be returning for another month.  Regan was off with friends for a long weekend to practice his growing skills.  Asthore looked wistfully into the mountain shadows thrown into such stark contrast by the incandescent moon.  As if on cue, high up and deep in the woods of the mountain into which the very castle was built, one throaty voice began a howl that rose into the night sky.  Soon others joined the lone singer, a pack in full chorus, and Asthore could tell their song was one of lamentation and not the glory of the hunt or merely the joy of singing the moon.  Her heart, already pained by her children’s absence and the day’s frustrating arguments, was a dam quickly burst, and empathetic tears coursed down her cheeks.  The pack sang its grief and, one by one, the voices subsided until the night was again silent.  Evanheir’s tender queen dried her tears and sought her bed.  She dreamt that night of pain and wolves and bloody snow and was not refreshed when morning came.

This day was much like the one before.  The same problems were presented; the same solutions argued.  At least her advisors promised this time to consider alternatives, to look for ways to improve conditions for those in need and means for them to help themselves and not merely stopgap measures that were not really solutions.  Nevertheless, it made for another long and tiring day.  Asthore found herself again on her balcony, trying to feel the heart of her kingdom and discover there the answers she needed for her people and for herself.

The quiet of her contemplation was interrupted by a barely heard cry.  One sharp yelp.  The queen listened closely.  There.  Again.  Then came the low beginning from what she was sure the first voice as the night before.  It rose from the guttural to the high, siren complaint as wolfsong does, but this time the singer was not joined by the pack.  It continued by itself, but briefly and weakly, and then it stopped as if cut off.  Then a sharp yip and silence.

Asthore needed to get out of the palace.  That mournful, painful cry and her own compassion drove her.  Calling to no one, she dragged out a trunk and found the warm breeches, tunic, and boots she had not worn in so long.  Her pouch of herbs and special elixirs was there, as well.  Wrapping her hunting cloak around her shoulders, she padded in her soft, oiled riding boots down the marble halls and stairs to the stables.  The hostler started to protest the intrusion and someone waking him in the middle of the night, but was almost at a loss when he realized who was saddling the queen’s mare.  Asthore saw him gathering his wits then to tell her she was foolish to go out at night, especially alone, and gave him such a look that froze him sheepishly in place.  He stood there, shuffling from one foot to the other, until she was out the gate and off into the moonlit night.  Then he merely shrugged his shoulders and returned to his fireside cot, muttering all the while about the foolishness of women and royalty, and royal women in particular.

Not completely sure herself about this midnight escapade, Asthore knew approximately the direction she should go up the mountain, and the trails still passable would determine some of her path.  Mostly she felt driven to see if she could help.  The desperation and defeat in that wolfsong had spoken to her most caring nature and pleaded with her for help as no one had for some time.

She spoke softly to her horse: “All right, Ivy, let’s go see if we can make a new friend.  Up, girl.”

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“The Wolves of Evanheir: Pt 2—King in the Mountains”

The poor mare’s heart was as large and loyal as her rider’s, but by the time the sun peaked over the eastern mountains, horse and rider were tired and cold and almost spent.  They had crossed and backtracked for hours, stepping gingerly along icy snowpack, over rocks and deadfall, both attentive to every sound.  The queen had scanned the snow for tracks until her eyes were red and dry.  The tree line was nearing.  Asthore doubted the wolf she had heard would be in the open of one of the mountain’s stark bowls above the forest.  She knew that soon she would have to turn Ivy back to the stables, and the truant queen dreaded the questions and accusations she herself would face.

Suddenly she felt her weary horse start beneath the saddle.  With a snort Ivy pricked up her ears and sidestepped left as though she was afraid.  “Easy, girl,” Asthore’s calm voice belied her own quickened heart.  The queen searched eagerly for some sign that their quest had succeeded.

There.  A hunter’s blaze on the bark of a stump pine.  Below it, boot prints.  Asthore dismounted to look closer.  Holding Ivy’s reins she waded through a knee-high drift and found behind a boulder the trail that had eluded them through the night.  A lone hunter had foolishly hiked almost to the summit, probably seeking one of the mountain sheep that danced tantalizingly along the high escarpments.  It was a daring adventure typically too risky for the reward.

The queen could see in the brightening day the path the hunter had taken up the mountain, a stealthy zigzag along the lee sides of trees and rocks where the snow was not as deep.  About thirty yards from that broken path was another, headed pell-mell down the mountainside.  This time, however, he was not alone.  On either side of the hunter’s flailing tracks were the tell tale prints of a chasing pack!  Now and then Asthore could see splashes of red in the hunter’s trail.

For a moment the queen debated following the hunter to see if she could help him.  Obviously he was wounded, and the pack was at his heels.  Then she wondered why he was being chased and why he was hurt.  The wolves were protected in her mountains.  Their packs maintained the delicate balance among the elk and sheep, the small varmints and the big cats, and they added a bit of protection for the kingdom itself.  They attacked humans only to protect themselves.  Asthore sniffed.  Looks like he may have gotten what he deserved.

After loosely tying Ivy’s reins to a low branch and leaving her with a handful of oats and some water in the leather bucket from the saddle bags, Asthore slung her healer’s pouch over her shoulder and once more waded through the snow in search of answers for why the pack and the lone wolf had sung to her the last two nights.  She followed the trampled and stained path another fifty yards or so until she came upon a line of massive boulders that formed a natural windbreak and amphitheatre.  Sensing that what she sought was there, she stopped to listen.  She heard only her heartbeat and the wind blowing softly in her face and gently through the branches above her.

Moving slowly and carefully around the side of the rocks, still following the hunter’s path, she came into view of the open space.  The hunter had done the same, stealthily approaching, stopping to look.  It was a large arena.  The snow was not deep, and what was there had been packed down by many animals.  On the far side, a good forty or fifty yards from where she stood, Asthore could make out two black wolves lying side by side.  She could tell something was wrong.  Their poses seemed unnatural.

With no thought but to help, the gentle queen walked boldly toward the two great beasts.  She had not gone far until she could see that both had arrows protruding from their sides.  Asthore’s breath caught in her throat and her hand went to her mouth.  She looked closer and slowly approached.  Only one, the big male, was still breathing shallowly.  As tears streamed down her cheeks, she knelt by his side.  A low growl began in the majestic animal’s throat and his eyes opened.  With obvious effort he raised his head and looked directly at the queen.

“Shhh,” she soothed.  “Peace, my friend.  Let me see if I can help.”

Asthore stifled a startled scream and almost fainted when, in her mind, she heard, “See to my mate first.”

“What?!”

“Do not be afraid, my queen.  You are known to us.  We called you.  I am Llyr, King in the Mountains.  Two days ago a youngster from the city surprised us at a gathering of the pack.  He shot my mate, Cuini, as she stood on the speaker’s rock.  When I leapt down to shield her, I took the second arrow he had for her.  The pack chased him off.  How is she?”

“What magic is this that you speak to me?”

“I will explain.  First see to Cuini, please!  I do not hear her.”

Asthore stood and moved around Llyr, then kneeling again, held her gloveless hand to Cuini’s cold chest.  She bent to put her ear to the she-wolf’s muzzle.  Turning to Llyr, she said, “It is as you probably know already.  Your queen is gone, Llyr.  You have my sympathies.”

“Thank you.  I did know, but I had hope.  Soon I will join her.”

“May I examine you, Llyr?  Maybe I can help you.”

“Do as you wish, but the arrow is deep.”

Laying her hand on the wolf-king’s side, next to the still oozing wound, Asthore felt his heartbeat.  It was slow and painful, she could tell.  Closing her eyes, she felt with her healer’s sense along the arrow’s shaft.  It had gone deep, and it had broken a rib, but that deflection had kept it from going deeper.  A sudden movement, even a soft blow to the arrow and it would penetrate that great heart and slay the black king.

“I think I can save you, Llyr, if you will allow me to try.”

“No, my queen.  This should be my end with Cuini gone.”

Asthore could feel the beast’s anguish at his loss even through the pain of his wound.  Her sympathy and empathy were breaking her heart, as well.

“You should not let yourself be defeated, Llyr.  Surely there is more for you to do with your life!”  She pleaded.

“Thank you, Asthore, for your care and concern.  Cuini and I were mated long ago and have enjoyed our lives together in the mountains of Evanheir.  I don’t know if I can go on without her.”

“You must!”  This new voice in her mind made Asthore jump to her feet and turn to the open arena behind her.  There stood a dozen wolves, the pack now returned to see to their leaders.  Standing just ahead of the others the obvious speaker, an almost pure white wolf, looked at Llyr and then lifted his head to Asthore.

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“Let Me”

When you are brave,

let me stand with you;

When you are afraid,

let me shelter you;

When you care for others,

let me care for you;

When you are in pain,

let me ease your hurt;

When you love,

let your heart turn to me

let me love you.

Daniel J. Cox

03/22/2014

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“Break”

What used to be my formal living room is now my billiards room.  Full-sized pool table, a couple of bar tables with high chairs (Husker logos included), sound, TV.  One room of my two-story “man cave.”  Sometimes when I need to stop thinking about something, I run half a dozen or more racks of Rotation (shoot the balls in order, 1-15).  It’s sort of like golf indoors, which is thought to be one of the origins of pool anyway.  My conscious mind is focused on setting up the shot I’m taking, getting the angle just right, but planning to leave the cue ball to set up the next shot.  While I’m otherwise occupied, sometimes my subconscious provides me with ideas.  During one session, it came to me that this process of shotmaking, taking a shot while planning for the next one, is one of the biggest differences between an “adult” and an adolescent, or even a “young” adult.  It takes some years of experience not only to think about what you need to do in the “now” to be successful but also consider how today’s actions set up what happens next.

Parents and other advisors of young people attempt to help them plan ahead.  It does take experience to see the ramifications of a choice or action, and even then the variables can be so numerous, so unforeseen, that it isn’t possible to consider them all.  But, “In the kingdom of the blind, the one-eyed man is king.”  My father used to tell me that wisdom was being able to learn from the mistakes of others.  Of course, my stubborn streak is a mile wide, so I’m a REALLY good source of experience….

The starting shot in any pool game is the Break.  From one end of the table, the first player uses the cue ball to scatter the rack of fifteen numbered balls, sort of a “Big Bang.”  If something goes in a pocket, the Break shooter may continue.  Whatever game is played begins from there with each shooter trying to pocket some or all of the balls on the table.  It takes practice, skill, and planning to be good at it.  I’ve seen amateur shooters who could make the cue ball dance.  Watching professionals, as in any sport, is mesmerizing.  Unfortunately, the game of Life is much more complicated and risky.

We start playing the game before we even know what we’re doing.  The balls that represent the possibilities of our lives are scattered around the table after the Break, and the other shooters might run most of them off before we even get a shot, are tall enough to reach the table, or know how to play.  Fatalists complain “Life sucks; then you die.”  I don’t think I’ve ever met a teenager who didn’t go through a depression like that one time or another.  Too pessimistic for me.  Many other quotations from successful people are better.  Wayne Gretzky, “The Great One” (a hockey player), said, “You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.”  Again, think about what that doesn’t say—You’ll make lots more of the shots you take if you know what the hell you’re doing!  Think he practiced?  Had a coach?  Played in a few games?  Took chances?  Got experience?

When it’s your turn at the table, be ready for your shot.  I don’t care if it’s your chance at a scholarship, the college of your dreams, the job you think you’ve always wanted, the girl/guy who seems waaaay out of your league.  Be prepared.  Think about what will be possible, where you’ll be after you make that shot—or what you’ll do if you don’t!  Line it up.  Go for it.  Then be ready for the next one.  Maybe the next Break will be yours.  Even a bad Break can lead to good shots later on if you’re ready for them.

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“It’s a Wonder We’re Still Alive”

When hints of warm weather finally start to tease us in late March, the buzz-saw irritation of accelerating motorcycles punctuates the usual drone of nearby traffic.  I am often reminded by both the fickle changes in the weather and the noise of the “donor”cycles of the fragile nature of my own mortality…and I can hear the echoed question posed by others my age: “How did we live to be this old?”  The combination of a warm March afternoon and a motorcycle brought me once very close to living a short and meaningless life.

On one balmy afternoon in late March of 1971 my best friend and college roommate, Snake, decided we needed to hitch to his home in Cameron, MO, and drive back to campus on his Suzuki 250 with its home-built sissy bar.  We’d made the trip to and from Cameron by thumb before, and that wasn’t much of an adventure.  Just getting five or six miles south of town sometimes took the longest, and we walked that a few times.  Hitchhiking in the countryside was always “iffy.”  Finally got to the old homestead, though, and enjoyed the afternoon along the highway because it was sunny and in the low 70s.  Absolutely gorgeous spring weather.  It is the Midwest, though.  The next morning we woke in Cameron to cloudy skies, 20-25 mph winds out of the northwest, and temperatures dropping into the 30s with chances of precipitation.  Oh, boy.

After stoking our furnaces with a good, solid, homemade breakfast courtesy of Mama Perry, we set out on the hour’s drive north.  I had every confidence in my good buddy’s abilities.  The only thing uncomfortable at first was the spare helmet that I was wearing.  It must have been sized for Andre the Giant.  My head felt like the clapper inside a bell.  By the time we’d gone twenty miles or so, however, I was ready for that “fun trip” to end.  I had a splitting headache, my hands were in cold rictus clutching the sides of my seat, and I could have sworn I no longer had toes.

Everyone in that area of far-northwest Missouri was looking forward to the completion of Interstate 29 between St. Joseph and Omaha.  The paving was finished up to Rock Port, I think, but the stretch from about Oregon to the Rock Port exit at Highway 136 wasn’t open because the shoulder grading and seeding work still had to be done.  We got to the barricades where the road was closed and stopped to look at all that smooth pavement just begging for the first 75 mph vehicle to lay tracks.

Neither of us remembers our having a discussion at that point.  We are still close enough today that we can almost read each other’s thoughts.  (I just flashed on my wife, years later, shaking her head at us and saying, “One of these days you two are going to hurt yourselves.”)  He shrugged.  I shrugged.  Well, it would shorten the trip….

Soon we were tooling along at a good 75 mph or more, hunched into the icy sting of almost freezing rain and driven by the wind, both of us glad there was no traffic on that road and the thought of reaching our destination much more ahead of schedule than expected.  A warm room, dry clothes, and perhaps some “antifreeze” beckoned.  We were both presenting low, streamlined profiles except that I frequently peered over Snake’s shoulder to see what was ahead.  Luckily I looked up at one point just when I should have.  The image is seared in my brain.

We rounded a slow curve and, just ahead, the unopened highway passed beneath another road.  That’s Missouri River bluff country, and the Interstate follows the hillside most of the time, so the earth rose up on the right hand side, but the southbound lanes on the left were across a wide ditch median and the center support for the overpass filled the opening between lanes.  No problem with any of that.  Unfortunately, someone had left about a foot-and-a-half of dirt piled right in the middle and shoulder-to-shoulder across the northbound lanes along which we cruised at breakneck speed.  The closer we got to it, the more obvious it was that the rain had turned the top of the dirt pile to slimy cold mud, and work vehicles had left numerous ruts, as well.  OK.  Slow down and go around it.  Wrong.

Guarding one side of that muddy minefield was a bulldozer.  Standing sentinel on the other, a road grader.  Nothing to do but cross the dirt pile.  I think Snake got it braked down to about 70 by the time we arrived moments after I looked over his shoulder at our impending doom.

We’ve talked about this often in the last forty-plus years.  The bike completely left the roadway, of course.  My good friend and I still marvel at the synchronicity of that feat.  We could have been performing with Cirque de Solei…or at least Ringling Brothers.  With my hands simply touching his waist for reference and he still grasping the handlebars, the two of us rose from the seats and foot pegs as if we were one body.  When gravity insisted on our return to earth, we again made the trip in unison.  The front end wobbled a bit in a rut.  The back tire may have slipped somewhat.  Snake just straightened it out and gave it more gas.  We didn’t stop until we had to at the next stop sign.  Didn’t talk about it until we were back on campus and our teeth had stopped chattering.

“How the hell did we do that?”

It wasn’t the first time either of us made it out the other side of a potentially lethal event, and it wasn’t the last.  We usually just roll our eyes and shrug when someone rehashing his or her youthful escapades states the obvious: “It’s a wonder we’re still alive.”

No shit.

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“No Two Alike”

I just looked out my window at the streetlamp across the street and discovered that it’s snowing.  Humidity is high, so the flakes are mostly those big, fat wet ones characteristic of spring.  Usually this prompts me to take an evening stroll, but it’s windy and wet and I feel more like sitting by the fire and reading tonight.  My book will have to wait a bit, though, because once again the metaphor of snow is piling drifts too high to escape in my creative imagination.

We all were told in elementary school how no two snowflakes are alike.  My interest in science led me eventually to dig deeper into just what my favorite form of precipitation actually is and how this miracle of nature occurs.  I recommend that to you, if you’re interested.  It’s as fascinating as life itself.  Although many things seem to be just alike, more often than not, they are quite different.  Like people.

For a single snowflake to wrap its prismic lines around a speck of dust high in the clouds, just the right amount of moisture must also be in its cloudy incubator and the temperature, too, at a specific degree.  Its singular birth happens then when that one crystal alone is ready, and it drifts away in the wind to join others that also feel the tug of gravity and seek the earth.  Together they might, just might, find their way down and discover a habitable environment that can accept them for a little while.

I have seen their collective mass completely erase the landscape and blanket the ground in undulating waves of glistening brightness when the sun eventually chases the clouds away.  As a child I remember feeling like an explorer wading through it in search of my familiar back yard with its now buried treasure of toys or tools left out the day before, or maybe something new hidden there that somehow escaped my notice when the ground lay bare and cold.

More than once a storm has been more treacherous than beautiful.  Tree limbs and power lines have come crashing down.  Cars and trucks slid off treacherous roads and into ditches now deep with snow.  I’ve been caught ill prepared and felt the bitter cold and wished for summer sun for just a moment, then indoors felt the needle sting of warming, too-cold flesh.

We are like the snow, I think.  Our sameness as a species is undeniable even when our sometimes-varied colors and shapes proclaim those differences.  Despite these seeming alterations, however, en masse we are as homogeneous as a Nebraska prairie lying fallow beneath a foot or more of a January blizzard.  Our origins are essentially the same in our creation, release into the world, and gathering storm across the landscape in families, clans, cities, towns, and nations.  One by one we become the entity of “human.”  It isn’t necessarily a bad thing.  We would do much better to remember that.

Again, like the snowflake, we are also each unique.  No two are alike.  Reverse the process.  Return on the windy road of each like/unlike life even past that moment of generation, of becoming.  As with each snowflake’s matchless crystal, we have our own special combinations of DNA that make us so much like our fellows yet only our particular selves.  It can be incredibly mindboggling.

Go even farther back in this process now.  Another of my favorite concepts is that in order to have “wings,” we need “roots.”  Those snowflakes that come to us are merely a new generation born from the incorruptible sources of the past.  They are new, unique, yet created from the most basic, most elemental materials that have themselves cycled through, come and gone and now return.  And so are we all.

I am a singular blending of genetic material and my environment.  No other being that has ever lived or will ever live has been or can be a duplicate.  Even a clone would not be “me.”  My roots are generations of other individuals who were their own particular biological and sociological experiments.  They were also special to their times and experiences.  One snowstorm covers the earth in its own blanket.  The next will look similar, but it won’t be the same.  When I look in the mirror these days, my father stares back at me.  I look at my sons and I see him, too, and my mother and my grandparents and their mother.  My grandchildren go on.

It has stopped snowing.  In a few days it will be spring.  I look forward to the bursting buds on my maple tree to go from gold to green and in a few months shade me from the summer sun.  It will be fun to sit on the porch and watch my grandchildren develop their uniqueness, and I’ll probably (again) exclaim to their mother, “Their grandmother smiled like that.”

And next fall I’ll be as excited as they as I look closely into the grey sky to spy the first snowflake.

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